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May 21st, 2023 at 05:19 pm

I lost my beloved Buffy on Mother's Day.   I took her to the emergency vet on Saturday morning for an issue which resolved itself while she was there, but they said, "while she's here, why don't we just do an x-ray and see if anything we don't know about is going on?"  and they gave her a pain shot.  

It was more intervention than she could tolerate and she was not the same cat when she got home.  I waited 24 hours in case she improved--sometimes before after pain meds or being hospitalized, it took her 18 hours or so to get back to herself--but not only was she not herself, but she was hunching over (a sign of a cat in pain) and occasionally putting herself in her carrier to hide (a new behavior).  She did drag herself out to the porch to lie in the sun for a while and I did get a few minutes of purring from her when I was lying by her side, but it seemed kinder to put an end to what was clearly suboptimal experience and the sooner the better.  I tried to schedule an at-home euthanasia but the earliest I could get was Tuesday, and I didn't want to wait.

I have now been pet-less for a week, which is the longest period in 29 years.  My head's intent is to adopt another two cats later this year, towards year-end, but who knows what my heart will end up doing?  I'm still kind of numb and in shock and grieving profoundly.  I have loved all of my pets, but there are some who touch you more deeply.  A decade ago, Henry was my heart hound, and Buffy was my heart kitty for the past 9+ years.

13 Responses to “Heartbroken”

  1. latestart Says:

    I am sorry for your loss.

  2. Wink Says:

    Dido, I am so very sorry for your loss. Take care.

  3. Petunia 100 Says:

    I am so sorry for your loss. Buffy was a beautiful kitty. It is so hard when they go.

  4. Suemn Says:

    I'm so sorry for your loss of Buffy. It's always such a hard decision to let our loved pets go but it's the right thing to do when they are in so much pain with no hope of recovery. Keep thinking of the good times you had with Buffy. Hugs to you!

  5. Turtle Lover Says:

    Very sad news. My heart breaks for you ... I'm sending hugs ... I do hope there will be a time when you can rescue another cat (or two ...) but only when you are ready. Thank you for sharing the photo.

  6. MonkeyMama Says:

    I am so sorry for your loss. 😢

  7. CB in the City Says:

    I'm so sorry! It's so difficult, but you did the right thing.

  8. crazyliblady Says:

    Was it whatever the vet did that caused this, or a reaction to the treatment?

  9. LifeBalance Says:

    I am so sorry! You have been a top-notch kitty mama. She was lucky to have your love and care for the past decade.

  10. VS_ozgirl Says:

    Dido, I am so sorry for your loss. She’s a beautiful cat and it’s so hard when we lose our fur babies. Take care and cherish the great memories you shared together {{hugs}}

  11. LuckyRobin Says:

    Some cats walk along beside us. Other cats we carry in our hearts their whole lives and long after they are gone. I never could have another cat after my last one died. It's been 26 years, but I just can't go out and find a cat. It broke my heart too much. I am so sorry that your dear one has gone on. I know you were expecting it soon, but that never makes it any easier. Nothing makes it any easier. I hope you have had some real life people around you to help you through this, too.

  12. LivingAlmostLarge Says:

    I am so sorry for your loss. take time to grieve and reflect. The rainbow bridge is waiting.

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